...Well.
That wasn't fun. [/extreme sarcasm]
Okay well first I want to have a little disclaimer here. When I went into surgery, I wasn't afraid at all. I was kinda psyched
It would be a learning experience that would help me empathize with patients, since I wanna be a surgeon and all.
Besides, I had a really sexy surgeon. xD
And really, surgery did go absolutely fine.
But I'm having such a negative reaction to the general anesthetic that I kinda wanna die right now @_@
So I wake up in the recovery room about 50 minutes after I went under.
Going under was actually really cool. The nurses were really, really nice, and the anesthesiologist was a pretty cool guy.
He knew about drugs and doesn't afraid of anything. Well they attached the oxygen mask to my face, save me an IV of saline, and then gave me an injection of the anesthesia. Yes, so it was the injectable kind of general anesthesia. The nurses smiled at me and said the next thing I'd know, I'd be in the PACU (post-anesthetic care unit). All of a sudden my legs feel like they've been emerged in a hot tub, then my arms, then my chest, then my head... and I feel asleep. It took about 4 seconds. Coolest 4 seconds ever.
Can you dream under anesthesia? I'm pretty sure you can't, but I know I did have some crazy hallucinations about Eternal Sonata or something.
Anyway.
Yes, next thing I knew, I was in the PACU with the oxygen mask around my face and the nurses were calling my name.
I was shaking and trembling as if I was having a seizure and they couldn't stop it. So really I was laying in a bed with intense (read: as if you were stuck in the middle of the arctic without a coat) trembling for an hour for no reason at all. The nurses said that this sometimes happens with people and that it's nothing to be afraid of unless it provokes a seizure.
It
sucked.Oh yeah, and for some reason, when I woke up I was crying hysterically...
I consider myself a pretty tough girl, and I'm pretty ice-queen-ish when I'm at home and something (pain, family issues, illness, etc) bothers me. I'm a 3rd-degree Black Belt who wants to be a military doctor, I can handle myself. I wasn't relieved that my surgery was over at all, I knew it would go absolutely fine. I didn't want to see my Mom because she's an insane woman. All I really remember wanting was to see my boyfriend and to stop shaking so much. But yeah, I could NOT stop crying. And I mean sobbing. For absolutely no reason!!!
It was scary O_O Can you imagine crying for four hours straight over absolutely nothing and not knowing why?! It was awful...
After about an hour of this happening (after it started getting really bad), the nurses told me that in some rare cases some people have intense emotional reactions (such as crying like crazy) after anesthesia and no one knows why it happens. The patient themselves don't feel any emotion, but their body acts like it's been agitated and responds to stimuli in a sad or overly happy or angry way. It was weird. I hate crying.
So I went home half an hour after that, and...
I calmed down a little bit after I got home a few hours later. But all I wanted to do was sleep and no one would let me. My Doctor said I wasn't allowed to go to sleep for another six hours, and I couldn't eat anything but broths for 24 hours. So here I was, starving and exhausted from drugs and I wasn't allowed to eat or sleep. Fail.
THEN I get this antibiotic where I have to take it every 6 hours, and stay awake for 40 minutes after I take the pill. So this means that for 5 more days this week, I can't get over a 5 hour and 20 minute sleep.
This isn't even the worst part yet, kids x_x Sorry if this seems whiny, I'm just really scared about what's going on right now.
I take my antibiotic pill every 6AM/PM and 12AM/PM. So I wake up this morning at.... 6:38, and my parents didn't wake me up and give me my medication like they're supposed to. I know what happens when you miss a pill, so I got out of bed by myself and went to get my T-3s and antibiotic.
Halfway through pouring my apple juice... I went completely blind.
I am not kidding or being melodramatic. I seriously went blind. Just like that. One second I'm pouring juice, the next second my vision is black and I can't see a thing.
I started freaking out, dropped my glass and my pills, and groped around the kitchen to find a chair. My Mom woke up from the noise of me dropping things and ran out of her room and started asking me what was wrong.
I was crying. "Mom, I can't see anything, I'm blind...!"
I sat in the chair sobbing for 15 minutes with my Mom stroking my hair (nicest thing she's ever done in my life, lol) before my sight finally started coming back. It was back by 7:15. I was so scared. I thought I was never going to be able to see again.
SCARY SHIT.
So none of us have any idea what happened. Wayne thinks it was malnutrition since I haven't had anything to eat in 3 days. I really don't know what it could be. I just hope it doesn't come back. I really wish my Doctor would have warned me about this...
So that brings me to right now. I've been in bed for the last... 17 hours... and I still want to sleep. And I look extremely fugly. My face swelled to five times its normal size and if my boyfriend saw me I'd kill myself. xD
But yeah I survived. Hopefully this anesthetic wears off today and I go back to being normal x_____x
And I hope that blind thing never, ever happens again. To anyone.
Signing out.
World. <333
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Hey guys! I get my 4 buried wisdom teeth removed via surgery in T minus 12 hours!
Just thought I'd let you know, I may/may not be on in the next four days. Lol, hiatus.
Just in case the 1/100 chance comes up where the anesthesia kills me.... bye! 8D
Lol jkjk <3333333333
Wish me all luck. <333 See you tomorrow! X3
Love!
World.
WAIT
...There's a person on the internet somewhere I promised pictures of my Tenenbaum cosplay. Sorry it is taking so long. Dx I haven't forgotten about you! Thanks for being so patient.
Byebye!